I've received an offer of help from the 'Master Warrior'. This could be interesting, and if what he says is true he may be able to provide me with the proper resources I need, or test subjects.
In actual news, the experiments have not been going too well. I have run across a new problem. After experiment #1's success, I tested further. It has become clear that mental barriers are a very real threat to my work.
Mental barriers are created through intense fear, childhood events, that sort of thing. They're extremely hard to remove, and I didn't believe I had any.
It seems I was wrong.
I have got over their deaths.
I'm not obsessing over this project because of that. There are other reasons too, such as helping other people, so they don't suffer the same fate as they did.
All right, I admit it. It's because of them I'm doing this, and I won't stop. You know this.
But what's the use? More and more Dying Men are reported each day. How can I possibly destroy all the shards? That's just this universe; given Stephen Hawking's research I wouldn't be surprised if there are others. Parallel universes; that would be just my luck.
The use? I need to help them.
The others.
Any others.
The fear must be eradicated.
Friday 15 February 2013
Friday 8 February 2013
Experiment #1 - Analysis
Experiment the first is now over.
I did not get quite the results I was hoping for.
Detailed notes shall follow:
Experiment 1 worked around theory as described here, revolving around somehow entering the subconscious mind of the host.
To enter the subconscious in myself, simple self-hypnosis techniques were used. Once in a deep enough trance state, I could turn my focus inwards.
Wandering the mental plane, I found nothing of note.
Conclusion: either theory used is incorrect. Consider revision.
Other option is to persevere, until theory is proven or disproven. Either way will be sufficient.
I did not get quite the results I was hoping for.
Detailed notes shall follow:
Experiment 1 worked around theory as described here, revolving around somehow entering the subconscious mind of the host.
To enter the subconscious in myself, simple self-hypnosis techniques were used. Once in a deep enough trance state, I could turn my focus inwards.
Wandering the mental plane, I found nothing of note.
Conclusion: either theory used is incorrect. Consider revision.
Other option is to persevere, until theory is proven or disproven. Either way will be sufficient.
Friday 1 February 2013
Morticide
So little to do, so much time to wait around for the experiments to end and a new one to begin.
This isn't matricide... this isn't a mother.
This isn't patricide... this isn't a father.
This isn't infanticide... these are not children.
It is more like deicide... but these shards of a monster are not gods, or if they are, may all that is holy strike them down.
Religion is in the eye of the beholder. When things go well, their gods are praised for it, but when things go wrong they pray to their gods for forgiveness. I just do not see the logic.
No, this isn't deicide. This is morticide. Killing Death.
This isn't matricide... this isn't a mother.
This isn't patricide... this isn't a father.
This isn't infanticide... these are not children.
It is more like deicide... but these shards of a monster are not gods, or if they are, may all that is holy strike them down.
Religion is in the eye of the beholder. When things go well, their gods are praised for it, but when things go wrong they pray to their gods for forgiveness. I just do not see the logic.
No, this isn't deicide. This is morticide. Killing Death.
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